I miss the legit Fruta Planta.  I REALLY DO!  What's the replacement?   

CW:  118
HW:  135
LW:  108
GW:  110

I think I've tried everything for weight loss  I know what my body responds to, so I'm not really sure if I'll ever be at 110 lbs again.  I really want it.. I will try my best to get there again, but what will it take?  I'm 27 years old.  Can my body handle what I want? 

8 lbs.... GO AWAY EASILY!

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[] anorexic
[] ednos
[] bulimic
[x] living off diet pills
[] hungry
[] thirsty
[x] drinking something
[] under 100lbs
[] starving yourself
[] participating in a fast


[] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic.
[] call me fat.
[x] say I’m skinny.
[] say I’m ugly.
[x] say I’m pretty.
[x] spread rumors about me.
[] force me to eat.
[] say I eat too much.
[] wish I’d eat more.
[] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic.

I wish

[x] I was THIN.
[x] I had a better body.
[x] I didn't have to eat.
[x] I could control myself.
[] I wish i was under 90lbs.
[x] I could avoid food.
[] I could hide what i am.
[] I wasn’t fat.
[] I was pretty.
[] I could stop being ana/mia.

I love

[] feeling hungry.
[x] seeing a difference when fasting.
[] shaking.
[] being weak.
[x] losing weight.
[] being anorexic/bulimic.
[] green tea.
[x] diet pills.
[x] being able to turn down food.
[x] feeling good about myself.


[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[] I have many scars.
[] I tan easily.
[] I wish my hair was a different color.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/had braces.
[] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[] I have more than 2 piercings.
[] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[] I have freckles.


[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.
[x] I've been kicked out of the house.
[] My biological parents are together.
[] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[] I've had children.
[] I've lost a child.


[] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[] Disney movies still make me cry.
[] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[] I've glued my hand to something.
[] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my trousers rip in public.


[x] I'm single
[] I'm in a relationship.
[] I'm engaged.
[] I'm married.
[x] I've gone on a blind date.
[] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[] I've cheated in a relationship.
[] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone i loved them when i didn't.
[] I've told someone i didn't love them when i did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.


[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger.


[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[] I've been suspended from school.

Bad times

[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I regularly drink.
[] I can't swallow pills.
[] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time, no problem.
[] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm upset.
[] I take anti-depressants.
[] I'm anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[] I'm addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying.
[x] I've lost weight.
[x] I've gained weight.
[x] My weight holds me back.
[x] Weight consumes me.
[] I'm at my thinnest.
[] I'm at my biggest.
[] I've lost weight and kept it off.
[x] I've lost weight but gained it back.
[x] My weight affects my mood.
[x] I weigh myself daily.
[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me.
[x] I thrive on compliments.
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size.
[] I feel happy when i'm hungry.
[x] I get depressed after i eat.
[x] I've skipped a meal.
[x] I've thrown food away.
[x] I've spit food out.
[x] I've fasted.
[x] I've taken diet pills.
[x] I've used laxatives .
[] I've purged.
[] I exercise.
[] I exercise so i can eat even a little.
[] I work out secretly.
[] I work out daily.
[] I exercise to counteract eating.
[] I've fainted from exhaustion.


[x] weed
[] cigarettes
[x] alcohol
[x] diet pills
[] pain killers
[] anti-depressants
[] ecstasy
[] LSD
[] mushrooms
[] speed
[] cocaine


[] I keep my eating habits a secret.
[] I have a ED blog.
[x] I look at thinspo.
[] I collect thinspo.
[] I condone pro-ana/mia sites.
[] I count calories.
[] I've had negative intake days.
[] I avoid food.
[x] I hate food.
[x] I love food.
[x] I want to be this way.
[x] I don't want to be like this.
[x] I wish i could have more control.
[x] Being thin is my top priority.
[x] I don't want to get better.
[] I am in treatment.
[x] I'm doing this for me.
[x] I'm doing this for someone.
[x] I'm doing this to prove myself.

Meizitang Botanical Slimming Soft Gels
It has almost been a year since I started taking Fruta Planta.  My body started adjusting to the stuff and shot up to 115 lbs.  I currently look fine, but I want to get back down again to at least 110 lbs, I'm starting to notice that my thighs are getting bigger.  I just recently purchased the Meizitang Botanical Slimming Soft Gels.  I know it's too early to tell if they are working.  I haven't lost the pounds (less than a week), but my appetite has significantly decreased and my energy levels are pretty darn high. 

I'm sure this has a lot to do with the times I eat and what I'm eating (too many carbs).  Luckily, with Fruta Planta, I was able to eat anything I wanted.  Unfortunately, when the stuff stops working, it's impossible to keep these bad habits going. 

The reviews on the Meizitang Botanical Slimming Soft Gels is amazing.  Crossing fingers for success :)

HW:  135
CW:  115
LW:  108
GW1:  110
GW2:  105

(no subject)
It's creepy how eating small meals throughout the day fucks everything up.  As a result, I wasn't able to go to the bathroom, and this morning I weighed 111.6 as opposed to yesterday morning's 109.  I blame stress :(

110 lbs.. wow.. How sweet it feels!!!  I want t keep going, but how thin is too thin for my body type?  And who is there left to impress?  In a way I want to see how many pounds my body will allow me to lose. 

My boobs finally felt the affects.. Down from a D to a C.  Never thought that would happen.  Unfortunately, it's the worst time to have to buy clothes cause I'm all out of money.  I'm drowning in my clothes.. I almost look like I'm wearing clown pants.  My bras look ridiculous.

Best compliment of the week was when my bf told me how much easier maneuvering me during sex was.  Shocked, stunned, but ecstatic.  I want to stay this weight forever... but once the Planta Fruta is no longer needed, can I keep this up?  What challenges do I have now?

Surprise Surprise!
lately I've been eating like a COW.. and my appetite has most certainly grown, however, even after the fast food burgers, fries, pasta and ice cream, I'm at 111 lbs exactly!  Just 7 more lbs to lose :)

My stats
CW:  111 lbs
HW:  135 lbs
LW:  111 lbs
GW:  104 lbs

Double Standard!?
I've stopped listening to people because they constantly contradict themselves.  It's sorta getting out of hand how much this happens! 

I sit next to a male co-worker who has a larger girlfriend.  He frequently explains how much he enjoys curves on a woman and how skinny girls are like pubescent boys. 

A female employee, who is twice my age, constantly tells me that I shouldn't lose anymore weight.  I am currently a size 4, 112 lbs.  "Any less and you would look malnourished." 

A new female employee started today.  She weighs in at a size 00 and these employees of mine couldn't stop talking about how beautiful she is and how all the guys would die to date her.  "Petite and beautiful."

Sounds really "curvy." to me.. LOL

Why am I getting shit?

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420 calories so far today and not too hungry :)  Dinner.. what should I have for dinner?  Neverending question. 

Weighed in again at 113.6.  Weird how I don't fluctuate in ounces.  It's all going to change, in a good way (weigh) of course ;P

Tonight, tonight..
All I had today was a big meatball, an orange, and 3" of a subway black forest sandwich without condiments.  I didn't eat much. but I sure do feel the food.  I really want to get down to my goal weight.. I'm just not entirely sure how at this moment.

Tonight I see old friends who I haven't seen in months.. I've lost the weight (over 12 lbs), and I get compliments all the time, but tonight really counts and the pressure is on.  I want these people to notice.  I want to feel pretty.  Today I just feel so GROSS and FAT.  My weight hasn't really gone anywhere for the past few days.  I'm sure it has something to do with what I'm eating.  Perhaps I should do a fast.. or.. eat alot healthier.  I want to see more favorable results.  It is kinda late for having to be somewhere at 8:30.


Yesterday was one of those carb days again.  Crackers for breakfast, pizza for lunch and pasta for dinner.  Oi!!!  Why do I do this to my body?  In my defense I took it easy on the portions, but this morning I woke up to 113.6 from last night's 114 lbs.  4 ounces lost.. it's usually a pound.  Today I had 3" Subway Black Forest Ham on wheat with lettuce, tomato and green peppers.. and a nice big bottle of WATER.  Flush it out!  Flush it all out!

CW:  113.6
HW:  135
GW1:  110
GW2:  105

I really need exercise.  I really hate this weather!


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